Oh Oh the Sweetest Things

To the right is a picture of the sweetest thing. Sometimes I let Carter stay in the bed with me after he eats in the morning. This is one of my favorite times with him.

Sitting at small group tonight, I couldn't help but realize how very blessed I am. We were talking about the different paths we have taken and how we all have ended up at the place where we long to serve God and have a relationship with him. I took a look back at my life and was hit in the face with how undeserving I am of God's grace and forgiveness and this wonderful life He has given me. I am so grateful.

As I was taking this stroll down memory lane, I first thought about my parents and the Godly home I was raised in. They are two of my best friends now. Then I thought about my brother and sisters and what a great relationship we have. As I sat at small group, I realize God has blessed me with something I have always longed for: great friendships. I am surrounded by women that love the Lord and live life with me. I have a husband who is my best friend. We have the best time together. I can talk to him about anything. He makes me a better me. I have most recently been blessed with the most amazing gift. Carter has flipped my life upside down in the most wonderful way. Everyday is more amazing than the day before. Don't get me wrong, we have had some hard days! It is all worth it without a doubt!!

We were also talking about looking at the hard times in life as learning experiences and being thankful even when things aren't going as we would like. This took me back to about two years ago. Adam and I were expecting our first child. At about 8 weeks, we lost the baby. This has been, to date, the hardest thing I have ever been through. Through that I learned a new kind of love and reliance on Adam and on God. I learned that God loves me even when I am angry with Him. I saw a side of Adam that has made me love and appreciate him more than I thought possible. I finally learned to rely on God and let him hold me through it all. When I became pregnant with Carter, I loved every day of the pregnancy. I loved my back aches. I was so excited the first time I saw my feet swell. Every step of the pregnancy was amazing to me. And now that I have Carter, I appreciate his little life more than I knew I could. God does amazing things!!

All this to say, I thank God for where I have been and where he has me now.